Goodbye Odin

It is hard for me to even write this blog without tearing up.  My dog, Odin, whom I had since I was 21 was euthanized on Friday.  It broke my heart.  He was otherwise healthy but had bladder cancer and was urinating in the house regularly and had blood in his urine often.  We finally decided it was time and it was a super hard, terrible decision and I feel a ton of guilt and remorse about it.  I left work a little early and took him to the river to take a walk and swim one last time.  We went to the vet and Kevin and I held him while they gave him a blackout drug before euthanizing him.  We were with him when his heart stop and I barely held it together.  My heart is broken and will take some time to heal.  I feel like my family is missing a peice and he will be missed.  Love you ol' boy.